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Monday, March 30, 2009

satori, grandma's black eye, stephen colbert and other stuff too

Well to be honest, I've found my zen, or satori, or whatever buddhist word is appropriate here. I am pretty well in the hole but I've got nothing to lose. So I'm done stressing about it and am relatively quite a bit more peaceful.

And thanks to someone who is always there for me when I need him, I am nibbling on parmesan Goldfish. So good.

My grandma tripped and fell in a restaurant yesterday when she went to lunch with "the girls" after church. Apparently her face is pretty messed up and she can't even open one eye. I really don't know why I don't feel more terrible about this.

Tomorrow I must go visit Jill in the hospital (seriously Sarah. You must do this!). I feel like such a flaky friend. Ugh. And today I must do situps, pushups and arm curls(maybe). /: I've lost 3 of the 10 pounds I've recently gained but I also lost my abs which were just starting to be defined when I lost all motivation to exercise. But summer is pretty close and I dunno, every year I think THIS is the year I'm going to have a perfect body for summer. Although I don't even know where/when I will be exposing my body as I have no social life. I guess I could tan in my parents' back yard (:

Oh and I've been listening to Stephen Colbert's "I Am American and So Can You" on audiobook and he is hilarious. Some of my favorite quotes so far:

You can't spell parentry without 'try.' And you also can't spell emotional abuse without 'bus.' And that's why I don't take public transportation.

Yes, I consider the wallpaper industry part of the media. It has the word "paper" in it.

To their credit Mormonism's founders did something other self-proclaimed prophets throughout history had never thought of; They lived in America.

oh AND PS: This made me laugh. Karl Lagerfeld on Heidi Klum: "I don't know Heidi Klum. She was never known in France. Claudia Schiffer also doesn't know who she is."

oh and Wolfgang Joop calls her fat.
click here

Friday, March 27, 2009

one from the archives ...

November 13th, 2007 in Tokyo:

what i ended up bringing with me what i ended up leaving behind:
mid calf brown boots, knee high black boots, purple ankle boots, black patent calfhair wedges, black ballet flats, running shoes, underwear, bras, fur coat, fur lined hooded jacket, magenta jacket, other assorted jackets and blazers, leggings, jeans, two short sleeved turtlenecks, trapeze tops, dresses, a painting that's a gift for the bf, a miniature broom and dustpan (housewarming gift), glass photo coasters (another housewarming gift), four hats, scarves, long black leather gloves, short black leather gloves, cream cashmere fingerless gloves, shampoo, *conditioner (still need to buy), face wash, body wash, hair products, hair accessories, makeup, straight iron, curling iron, ipod, books, magazines, airplane snacks, wallet, passport, sunglasses, contact lenses and cases, glasses, robe, nintendo ds, digital camera, rechargeable batteries + charger, camera cable, ds charger ....

plus ... had my hello kitty ash tray bought from ebay delivered to japan address.

what i've purchased here:
3 drawer acrylic organizer for makeup, hello kitty pajamas, weird sweatshirt, fake nails, rubber nail charms, sketch pad, two graph paper notebooks, 3 pens, 3 sable brushes, watercolors, f cup cookies (did not work), camouflage pet sling carrier for my dog, blue squeaky pig dog toy, panda parka for dog, yellow circle sunglasses, weird flip up sunglasses as gift for ...

... will continue to add to this list as i remember all the shit i've bought ...

still on my list: gifts for friends and fam, heel saddle shoes like the bally ones i wanted from nordstrom but $550 cheaper, more stuff for my dog

Reading this again makes me smile because packing for trips is always fun for me. It requires organizing which I enjoy and forming lists which I also enjoy. And it reminds me of having THINGS. Like clothes and gifts and accessories and it reminds me of when my biggest disappointment in my life was that my boyfriend wouldn't propose. I wonder how I would've felt if I knew today I would have an engagement ring from him. Sitting in a box on my dresser. And I'm single.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Clutch #8




Last night I watched five episodes of Heroes. Tonight I had a Lipstick Jungle marathon (I adore Victory Ford and aspire to be her some day. Complete with millionaire love interest) and then a Fringe marathon. Then I watched an episode of the Simpsons. I love hulu.

Is it bad that I am really interested in electroconvulsive therapy? I wasn't aware they even still used this until a friend of mine mentioned it. But then I wikipedia'd it and apparently it's quite safe and relatively effective. I wonder if my insurance would cover this ... uhh.

I made chicken cordon bleu for the first time today (also the first time eating it) and it was pretty tasty. btw this cooking blog is awesome. I saw my therapist today and I think every time I see her I surprise her a little more with my strange thoughts, philosophies, theories, etc. I like her though and she is easy to talk to.

I was thinking ... it's not so bad that I have no money to pay any bills. Because soon my phone will be turned off. And then collections can't call me! Haha. Sad. Believe it or not, I actually currently have a pretty good credit score. April will be the end of that though. ): Talking about money is boring and lame and tacky. I'll stop.

My dog is adorable and trying to keep his sleepy eyes open to watch me from his vantage point on the bed. I love him.


p.s. oh yeah, the clutch will be listed on etsy tomorrow (provided i wake up before the daylight is gone again) i need to take proper pictures and sew a snap closure on it first. (:

p.p.s. oh and why the hell am i selling my ds just when GRAND THEFT AUTO: CHINATOWN WARS is coming out?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Clutch #7

1. Thank you to anyone who left me sweet comments or encouraging words to my previous post! I definitely needed it.

2. I am selling my Nintendo DS on eBay. Click the photo to see the listing.

3. I finally sewed something new. I just took these pictures and since it is 9pm, the lighting is bad. New photos will be taken and it will be listed in my my etsy store tomorrow.




That is all for now. Back to watching Heroes ...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

food stamps. mental health stigmas. the office.

Okay. Today I applied for food stamps. I'm really really not proud of this, but if I'm accepted for food stamps it will be a lot easier to defer my student loans. And really, there is no way I can handle another bill on top of everything. Anyway, during the application it asked if I had health reasons for not working. Or if I didn't work because I was disabled. And I really didn't know how to answer those.

I'm currently not working or in school because I have really bad depression and panic disorder and an eating disorder and unofficially diagnosed borderline personality disorder. Basically I have a lot of mental health issues. But I feel like those are bullshit reasons to not work. I really do. But that probably just makes me more depressed and more likely to have an anxiety attack. So wtf am I supposed to do? The last few days I've been a perfect commercial for depression or Paxil or Wellbutrin or Celexa or whatever when there's some person who's all by themselves looking really glum. Or maybe not because they never show people curled up in the fetal position crying in bed having not showered in 3 days in a very messy room with diet coke cans and snickers wrappers everywhere. Ugh. TMI sorry.

Anyway, I just read an article about depression and the stigma associated with it. It's about a study which concluded that people are more comfortable with admitting that they're gay, alcoholic, have cancer or are bankrupt. Seriously. People are more comfortable saying "I'm bankrupt" than "I have a mental health problem." I'm not judging bankruptcy because I'm pretty much bankrupt too. Haha. Reminds me of the episode of the Office where Michael "declares" bankruptcy. Check it out:

chick lit anyone?

So if you've been following my blog, you know I have been trying to sell everything I own pretty much. Haha. I'm cleaning out my bookcase! If you're into chick lit, that's fantasic because I have tons of it. I bought all of these new and read through them once so they are in excellent condition and you can have them for $3 each or cheaper if you buy more, plus shipping. Or just make me an offer. lol. I would accept payment through Paypal. If anything interests you, just comment and we'll go from there!

The Nanny Diaries - Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus
Citizen Girl - Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus
Girls Night In - Jennifer Weiner, Sophie Kinsella, Meg Cabot and others
Everyone Worth Knowing - Lauren Weisberger
Boy Meets Girl - Meg Cabot
Queen of Babble - Meg Cabot
The Boy Next Door - Meg Cabot
Pretty Little Mistakes - Heather McElhatton
Blood is the New Black - Valerie Stivers
The People's Republic of Desire - Annie Wang
A Total Waste of Makeup - Kim Gruenenfelder
It Had to Be You (the Gossip Girl prequel) - Cecily von Ziegesar
The It Girl - Cecily von Ziegesar
Notorious. an It Girl novel - Cecily von Ziegesar

*If you're sketched out by the proposition of buying books from someone's blog you can check out my etsy or my ebay profiles for references.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Survey Says + things of worth that I own are few and far between

Thank you very much if you voted on the little poll I had where I asked "If you had to wear one of these, which would you pick?" Sixteen people answered and the results were:

Uggs: 5
Crocs: 1
Skechers: 2
Juicy Couture Velour Track Suit: 0
I Would Sooner Go Naked: 8

I kinda want to know who voted for Skechers, but I kinda also don't. lol

I think I'm going to do weekly polls because it's fun. So please vote on my next one!

I need to sew more. I need to sell more. Without a job, I've been surviving on credit card money and selling off half my wardrobe and random vintage things because I'm a vintage packrat. I find myself standing in the middle of my room looking around me at all my belongings, and realizing I own nothing of value to sell. Strongly considering selling my pink nintendo DS and my ipod. But who even wants to buy a 2nd gen ipod nano when there are all the newer cooler colorful ones?

I have a lovely pair of Elie Tahari boots but I know if I listed them on eBay I'd probably only get like $20 or something ridiculous for them. Why did I buy them? I really wanted a pair of boots that zipped up the back ... sigh. I have a problem.

Oh, and what the hell? I recently learned that Alexander McQueen was doing a line for target. And now Hayden-Harnett?? I feel like my bag now is worth nothing.

I do kiiinda like this umbrella though, as I don't believe in spending much on umbrellas because I always break them/lose them. Yes, here in Washington it rains a lot but no one actually uses those things. It inevitably breaks due to ridiculous wind gusts or your co-worker at J. Crew thinks it would be funny to press the button and "shoot" it and it jams into the wall or it rolls under your car seat never to be found again.

Wait til there's Chanel for Target. HAHA. Terrible. Sorry this post is boring. I've been having a boring day.

Friday, March 20, 2009

bears. beets. battlestar galactica.

Do you watch the Office? If so, I think you will like these (:





Bad quality video, but still hilarious:

Buy my cards here:

Thursday, March 19, 2009

the proposal

Oh my god I love terrible chick flicks. So excited for this one!


My ex boyfriend borrowed my car for a ridiculously long period of time earlier this year. "One to two weeks" turned into like a month. My ex-roommate in Seattle messaged me and said a parking ticket came for me in the mail there. It was obviously a ticket he incurred. I asked her to send it and she forgot. She emailed me images of the front and back of the ticket and I forwarded them to my ex. He said "Oh I don't have checks yet. What's your license plate number? Maybe I can pay it online."

to which I replied "Oh, my license plate is _____. It's also printed on the ticket along with all my other information. Also, you can pay it online at and the URL is also stated on the ticket. Or you can pay by phone at 206-384-5600 (this number is also stated on the ticket).

He never responded after this. I had a dream this morning that he was avoiding talking to me about the ticket. Then I woke up and realized I was just dreaming about real life ): The ticket was already late (It had gone up from $38 to $63) and was due tomorrow so I paid it myself today with a credit card. And I now have $3 of available credit left.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

new cardz

I just made two new card designs and I think they're pretty cute. Check 'em out!



Really Embarrassing Moment

Oh god. I had forgot this even happened to me today until just a minute ago. I'm not even sure how to tell this story.


Whisper this over and over: Sarah ... Sarah ... Sarah... Sarah ...

Did you do it? Outloud? You have to do it outloud.

Obviously that is my name. And if I happened to be in a public place, say, in line at the post office, it would be only natural for me to turn and look for the person who kept whispering my name right?

I turned to look and saw about three people. I didn't recognize any of the faces. Plus, none of their mouths were moving. Yet I still heard my name being whispered over and over.


Who the hell was whispering my name??

oh. OHH. OH NO!!!

I am the worst person in the world!

It was an older gentleman's oxygen! The sound of his oxygen supply was coming out in little bursts and somehow each little spurt of air made a sound that I swear to god sounded exactly like Sarah. Sarah. Sarah. Sarah. Sarah.

I realized my embarrassing situation and accidentally made eye contact with the old man for a split second before turning to face forward and willing the line to move faster.

I'm sure all the other people in line were like "That bitch is STARING at the poor old man with the oxygen tank! Learn some manners, woman!"

omg. Most awkward moment I've had in a long long time.

Monday, March 16, 2009

creamed jeans

If you haven't voted yet on my "if you had to wear one of these" poll, please do! it's right over there ==>

these shoes:

make me excited for spring.

It's 7 am, haven't gone to sleep yet. Packaged all the orders/sales I made this weekend. Sold my ruffle-ridden clutch to a good friend in Seattle (: Made some new cards. Sliced up a chanel watch ad, wove the strips back together onto watercolor paper. Hand-painted stems/clouds. Cut and paste.





and peter sent me this link in response to a conversation we had about dreaming in color vs. black and white which I blogged about a couple weeks ago.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

ugly atc swap

I am a big fan of aesthetically pleasing things. That's why I like fashion and art and design and really attractive people.

But sometimes it's fun and interesting to look at something ugly. I posted earlier about a swap-bot swap I was hosting, and it was fairly unsuccessful. Only two other people joined [wah-wah]. But I'm hoping this one will be more successful, because it's cheaper and easier I think. If you like to make art or like getting stuff in the mail, check it out:

click here to view the swap.

oh PS. I got really excited because today I sold a card and the ship-to address said "c/o marc jacobs" but then I realized it was just the Marc Jacobs store. Not Marc Jacob himself. sigh.

Friday, March 13, 2009

phone convo.

Jeremy: I'm so excited to hang out with you even though I don't even know when it will be. I mean I don't have a plan for it or anything.

Me: That's like how my mom's really excited for the Second Coming.

Etsy Sales

O hai.

You ever have those moments where you're doing something so pathetic that it's embarrassing even though no one else knows/notices? It's just embarrassing to yourself. Maybe that's called "shame." Hmm.

Anyway, I had one of those situations today. Earlier this week I FINALLY took my cowboy boots to get re-soled. I haven't worn them in years because there was a hole in the bottom of one of the soles and my foot would get wet ):

I'm ashamed to say, but honestly, I've pretty much been living off my credit cards for the last while, and I generally assume everywhere accepts cards. This shoe repair place is very Mom and Pop, and in fact, it's owned/run by a Korean couple so theoretically they COULD be my mom and pop. Haha. So when I walked in I noticed they only accept cash and checks. I don't carry checks around with me, and even if I did, it wouldn't have done me any good.

Long story short, I had to say I'd be right back, I needed to get some cash. And I spent an hour and a half driving around to the bank to withdraw $20 from my checking, to Safeway so I could buy a diet Coke and get $10 cash back ...

It was so bad I almost succumbed to retail therapy-ing on my way home. lol but I was able to resist.

Anyway, this leads me to my point which is I am conducting a sale in both my etsy stores, hoping to get some more traffic and hopefully some sales! Everything is 30% off or if you buy two items, take 50% off you're entire order (excluding shipping costs). You can order items from both my stores, too. So take a look, if you've been admiring my clutches, here's your chance to get one at 50% off which is a range of $25 - $60ish.

And if you're confused about how I set up the sale, just ask!

polysquaresale (clutches, jewelry (cards, some vintage)

Thursday, March 12, 2009

michael texts me

"I was just thinking of you because I saw the new britney spears video and her shoes are 85% ruffle 15% shoe"


I ended up getting a little less than 5 hours of sleep last night (this morning. yesterday morning? my schedule is so f-ed up) before my therapy appointment. Usually this means I kind of sit there and stare off past her a lot. But I was actually quite alert and chatty.

We didn't talk about religion as we'd planned to. I decided I wanted to talk about

a) My mom
b) My issues with eating
c) My dad's issues with my eating
d) MY issues with my mom's eating

Hahaha. On my way home from the counselor I stopped by Goodwill to look for fabric. While I was shopping, a girl complimented my shoes and it made me smile. I bought some awesome fabric and was planning on going home and immediately whipping up a dress or something but when I pulled into the driveway my dad was outside because he had just gotten the mail. He works at the hospital as a chaplain. I opened my car door and had one foot out ...

"I just saw Jill. She would really like to see you. Today would be a good day to do that, she's having a good day."

"Oh. Okay." I said and put my foot back in my car and closed the door and drove to the hospital. I met my friend Jill when I was working as a caregiver, and she was one of the people I took care of. She's only like 61 but has a lot of health probz and she's one of the coolest people I know. I kept telling her I'd come over and watch a movie with her or something but I didn't. One or the other of us was always having a "I'm-laying-in-bed-crying-and-don't-want-to-see-anyone" day. But she's been in the hospital awhile and even spent two weeks up at Harborview and was about to die. And I feel like such a shitty friend.

I bought her a stupid stuffed duck because I honestly thought "If it were me, I'd rather have a stuffed animal than flowers because I would probably be lying in that hospital bed crying every night and then I'd have something to cuddle with." OH and she's blind so I figured a card wouldn't be the best idea.

Apparently though, she likes being in the hospital because she's been there so often the nurses and she know eachother and she didn't seem too down about the sitch. I went to her house and picked up some stuff for her and all in all spent about 3 hours with her.

I hadn't eaten yet so I told her I had to go home and eat.

I went home and heated a can of soup. Then I started feeling really nauseous and I passed out from 8pm-2am. I still feel nauseous. And sad. And awake. When I first woke up my face kept curling up into that awful "I'm-gonna-cry" grimace that happens. But I didn't cry very much. And then what did I do? I texted my ex boyfriend (not the recent leaves-the-toilet-seat-up one but the Left-Me-For-Japan-for-Two-Years one) and I said "I want to smell you so bad." WTF? I very frequently really really hate the things I do.


PS had a Bally sale recently and they had THESE shoes. Which I actually almost bought at Nordstrom when they were new because I'd seen them online, but thankfully the Nordstrom in Tacoma did not have them (duh) and while they could have ordered them for me, there was no way I was paying $600 that I did not have for a pair of shoes that wouldn't even be instant gratification. Then I saw them at Nordstrom Rack like a year later, but just when I was about to purchase them THEN, I realized one of the shoes I had was a 7 and one was a 6 1/2. And the white leather was different colors on each shoe. Awk-ward. did not have my size but it was a bittersweet reminder of what could have been. Sigh.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


today (and by today i mean yesterday, because i haven't gone to bed yet) i have been filled with so much self-loathing i can barely stand it. i ate two loaves of french bread, a bag of parmesan goldfish, two lindt chocolate bars (one creme brulee one truffle cake and neither lived up to my expectations. anddd some other stuff i can't remember.

but yeah, sometimes i feel like my life in general brings new meaning to the phrase "eating your feelings."

good thing i have therapy appointment in about ... 5 hours and 45 minutes. ha.

today we're planning to talk about my f'd up religious beliefs. yikes.

i have been making lots and lots of stuff. i'll post a few pictures here, but if you want to see more just go to my flickr account.




OH. and ...

...News Headlines if I Ran a Paper

"Rosie O'Donnell has an etsy page"

"Myspace Credit Card exists"


"Confessions of a Shopaholic Made Me Cry"
subtitle: triggered self-loathing

Monday, March 9, 2009

Clutch #6



Number six is finished (mostly)!

When I started this clutch I was using brown herringbone wool. I had a few re-thinks before I got to this point. lol.

I will list it on etsy tomorrow. These pictures aren't that great and it's not technically finished since I ran out of snaps.

Plus I'm contemplating adding a keychain charm to the wristlet that matches the beads on it. We'll see.

Oh, and if you haven't seen this video yet, you need to watch it. Heinous.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Clutch # 5




Friday, March 6, 2009

while eating lindt toffee crunch bar and drinking prosecco straight from the bottle ....

I found a new blogger friend, insomniaclolita, and after reading this post on her page, I felt compelled to copy her and do it myself (:

Name the item of clothing that has been with you the longest:
I have this shirt that I rarely wear anymore because it somehow shrank up into a "short-fat" it's from the 1988 National Rollerskating Championships in Lincoln, Nebraska. It says "RACHEL" on the back.

Other than jeans, what’s an article of clothing that you can’t live without?
Men's wife beaters. I buy them in those really trashy packs of like, 8.

What was the last item of clothing you bought?
Umm ... I can't remember for sure. Probably dresses for Valentine's Day (I ended up not wearing any of the 3 dresses I bought, and opting for a black suede pencil skirt that I've had for quite awhile).

Describe your perfect winter & summer footwear:
Winter : Comfortable flat boots that aren't frumpy. Tall. Zip up. Easy to get on/off and fold your jeans into. Ridiculously tall hidden platform pumps/peep toes/patent leather. Anything heinous and over the top sexy that I can water down with tights and sweaters and long coats.

Summer : metallic leather flip flops, my white keds, brown/tan leather and suede.

And what’s a brand you wouldn’t recommend?
Candies. lol disgusting. Juicy Couture.

What’s the ugliest trend of all time?

And the best?
giant handbags.

What was your biggest fashion faux-pas?
green eyeshadow in middle school.

What colors predominate in your wardrobe?
black and gray

What are your vintage shopping strategies?
go thrift store shopping with high frequency. you're bound to find something awesome eventually.

What’s the most insane piece of clothing that you have ever owned?
Oh my god. A giant white faux fur coat. A Japanese maid outfit. Three identical pairs of shiny spandex pants from Express because they were on sale for $8 /: Yikes.

If you could describe the majority of the clothes you own in one word, what would it be?
Simple. Subtly heinous.

If anyone else does this post, let me know! I'd love to read your answers (:

French bread, dreaming in color, & super kawaii treasury

Yesterday all I ate was 1 entire loaf of French bread. At first I thought I was bingeing terribly, but if my calculations are correct, it was 1650 calories. Which for a whole day is entirely reasonable. I am aware that white bread as your sole source of nutrition is a pretty bad idea.

My mom has been dieting and it stresses me out how self-conscious she is. Anytime she's making food she's all, "DON'T JUDGE ME!" which is funny because I always feel judged and criticized by her about my own eating.

The more I go to therapy, the angrier I get about my mother. I really hope she doesn't read this blog.

Uhh ... anyway. I got up this morning to check out the Just Cavalli sale at but it was entirely boring. So was the 7 For All Mankind sale.

Last night I called my friend/the love of my life Peter and we talked about dreams. He's under the impression some people dream in black and white. I told him I thought that was just a myth. So I just googled it and (obvs the first result in Google is the Truth) came up with this very interesting article about it. Plus look at the very bottom of the page. Below the profound thought about colorblind people. The link title made me LOL.

I'm going back to bed now to try and dream about colors.

PS: Check out my first etsy "treasury" and click through to some of the pictures. I finally curated one! It's super kawaii! lolz. click here to view.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Gearing Up for Easter: Sex Toys. And Pornstar Twitter

Since I make greeting cards, I think a lot about upcoming holidays and the themes revolving around them. Easter is April 12th this year and although the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ is the reason for the season, bunnies and eggs and candy are cuter than an undead Jesus (Sorry, God). Call me a perv, but bunnies and rabbits sometimes just make me think of vibrators. And then when I was thinking about bunny vibrators, I thought about egg vibrators too and I realized Easter is a sex toy holiday! Wouldn't an Easter basket filled with this stuff be awesome?? Or a sex toy hunt outside in your back yard?:

1. Bunny Bunny. It's a cover for your electric toothbrush, converting it into a vibrator. Yikes.
2. Hello Kitty Easter egg dyeing set.
3. The classic rabbit (click to read my previous post about my unfortunate experience with the Rabbit)
4. A carton of these crazy eggs that are toys for boys. Inside of each egg is some silicone rubbery thing you slide over your dick, I think.
5. The cone vibrator. This intimidates me.
6. The adorbz bunny vibrator I blogged about previously.
7. Carrot dildo.
8. Peeps!
9. Bunny Peeps!
10. Rabbit hood (If you know me at all, you'll know that I have wanted to this leather bunny hood for years. I love it!)

And I found this site that's kind of entertaining: Pornstar Twitter. Follow your fave porn stars on this site.
1. i'm still not asleep. it's 6:33 and i can smell my dad cooking his breakfast. ew.

2. i just checked my email and is having a helmut lang sale AND an oscar de la renta sale today at noon so i better fucking get to sleep so i can wake up in time to look at clothes that i don't even have credit card money for.

3. i just activated two credit cards that i've had for awhile (i just got new ones), and one of them made me talk to a real lady. her name was deborah and she sounded like a robot. i kept zoning out like when you're on an airplane and the flight attendants are droning on about wearing your seatbelt and inflating your oxygen mask, except this person kept trying to get me to sign up for some credit protection program and i was like UGH i'm already UNEMPLOYED, can you cancel my balance up to $10,000.00 NOW?

4. i think i broke up with my boyfriend last night. i'm still undecided on whether it really doesn't bother me that much, or if i'm just dissociating myself from my feelings.

5. ftbs.

"I didn't know when to stop."

That's what the this clutch is called. It is so freakin' tacky and I LOVE it. It's still unfinished, but you get the idea:




[edit: it's 5:13am. i am done. i am going to list it on etsy now. then bed. zzzzzz]

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

food pr0n

What are my favorite things to look at on the internet?

1. Clothes/shoes/shopping
2. Porn
3. Food porn.

This post is dedicated to food porn.

Today I thought "Oh, why not make crabby wontons? That sounds delicious." so I fried up a bunch and started eating them. Then the guilt started to seep in. So I started looking at even more unhealthy food so I could justify "at least it's not THAT bad." and I found this wonderful site "this is why you're fat."

this is just disgusting (McNuggetini):

this looks pretty tasty actually (chocolate covered bacon):

as does this (chicken fried bacon & gravy):

i think i actually recall getting a Pizza Hut ad in the mail for this pizza when i was in Tokyo, though I'm sure it had, like, a raw egg just sitting on top of it:

A large turkey filled with goose, chicken, pheasant, aylesbury and barbary duck, poussin and guinea fowl, partridge, pigeon squab, quail and mallard duck. Breast meat from 48 different birds + 8 types of stuffing.

and I end my food porn spread with this adorable bento: