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Saturday, February 28, 2009

PLEATS?! Disturbing dreams and NIN cream

Pleats, please!!

This is the second clutch I've made. Instead of ruffles I went for pleats this time. I used vintage/thrifted fabric for both and sewed them using the machine my grandparents bought me as a high school graduation gift (:



The last couple days I've been sleeping a lot more than usual which is good except for the fact that I've been having crazy disturbing dreams. I often have dreams where I feel paralyzed but awake. And sometimes I hear voices or music. They're always angry voices/music. Sometimes I can force myself to wake up out of these dreams and I did this a couple times and forced myself to be coherent enough to find my phone and write myself memos of what the voices/songs were saying because I wanted to remember them in the morning. Anyway, I forgot I even did this for a day at least. And when I remembered about it, I didn't think there would really be any notes in my phone and that I was just remembering part of the dream. However there were two notes in my phone and they were hellllaa creepy:

"Peron yassir arafat"
"where little. You gotta give me corn the most"

uhhhh, wtf???

I leave you with this video that made me cream my jeans:

NIN: 1,000,000 Live from on stage, Sydney 2.22.09 [HD] from Nine Inch Nails on Vimeo

Friday, February 27, 2009

"She paid me $10 a day not to wear ruffles or eat Ruffles in the office."



I just sewed this ruffle-ridden clutch and showed my boyfriend the pictures. This is how the conversation went:

him: what is it?
me: a clutch
me: do you know what that is
him: its like bigger than a wallet but smaller than a purse
me: lolz
him: like you "clutch" it
me: lol
me: i love you
me: you're so knowledgable about accessories
him: I love you too
him: lots
him: and your clutch is very well appointed


stupid worries. weight gain.

Lately I can. Not. Stop. Eating.

It's ridiculous and I'm sure I'm gaining weight which is stressing me out. Too bad my coping mechanism for stress is eating. I spent way too much money at the craft store yesterday so I'd better put it to good use. I feel like I can't focus though, because I have all these ideas of things I would like to do ... For instance, tonight, should I sew some ruffly underwear? A purse? Dolls? Should I do some more watercolors? Should I take some reference photos and start my still life series? Should I just take a nap?

Here is an average day in the life of me:
10am-1pm: wake up, check google analytics, my eBay, myspace, hotmail then go back to bed for bit
12pm-1pm: obligations/errands such as therapy, post office, bank, force me to get out of bed.
1pm-4pm: errands, shopping, eating
5pm-3am: eat, internet, make art/crafts
4am-7am: go to bed.

I guess my schedule is pretty fucked up. But the fact that I actually sketch or sew or think about art is pretty cool. It kind of scares me too though, I keep waiting for it to end. Like when you are learning to ride a bike and you get up and going ... but you know at any second you might fall over and bite it.

A potential job keeps calling me and I keep not answering. My friend Dana calls me like clockwork on her lunch break every day (i don't answer), which without fail, wakes me up. Ugh.

I think underwear sewing is winning out.


Thursday, February 26, 2009

Tokyo! the movie, post office, swaps, shoe shops and sleep.

This movie looks pretty great.

I sold over half my wardrobe on eBay and shipped out several packages of stuff. I also sold a coat on etsy! Thank god, because now I can pay my cell phone bill.

P1010139 P1010147

I also sent a birthday card to my friend Roy and a kawaii postcard for a Swap-Bot swap. Other swaps I've done/am going to do are:

"Worst Date Ever" email swap
Owl ATC Swap
Twilight Music Swap - this swap you make a CD of music that SHOULD have been on the Twilight soundtrack and send it your partner. I've already started working on mine.
Gain Exposure to Your Blog Swap
Mini Recipe Book Swap

I love swap-bot.

I'm so tired. I ran out of my Wellbutrin prescription and have honestly been too lazy to call my doctor to refill it. That's bad. But Wellbutrin is the reason why I can't sleep.

I was window shopping at (my fave shoe store) and kept putting things in my cart that I liked. My subtotal is $1,600.00. Yikes. Click here to see a screenshot. Lolz

Oh yeah, and I cleaned my room. It was looking like this:


Shower. Then nap time.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009


Apologies if you tried to leave me comments and the captcha didn't load. It's done it to me when I've tried to comment on other people's blogs too. I just read about it in blogspot's known prob page. So yeah, I disabled the word verification thing for now so you can comment away!

Tonight I've been busy putting some new things on etsy.

Here's a link to my etsy shop.

Card set

Above it card

Octopet self portrait card

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Happy Fat Tuesday and I Can't Stop Painting

Happy Fat Tuesday! I'm not doing anything for Mardi Gras unfortch, but if you are celebrating, I hope you have a wonderful time!

In an effort to post a "relevant" and "current" blog post I decided to skim the news headlines. Naturally, I got bored reading about politics so I checked out the entertainment happenings.

A few completely useless headlines:

Megan Fox and Brian Austin Green Call off Engagement

Honestly? I didn't know Megan Fox even knew who Brian Austin Green was. "In some countries, he's old enough to be her father."

Tchaikovsky Saved by Cough Drops

"Our famous Sela-Cough lozenges have been keeping the 'cough' out of Tchaikovsky at Birmingham's world-renowned Symphony Hall since 1993."


HKO is 4th Most Anticipated MMO, Wins Recognition From HKICT

Yeah, I also wondered about all those acronyms.

HKO=Hello Kitty Online.
MMO=Massively Multiplayer Online game (click for wikipedia explanation).
HKICT=Hong Kong Information and Communication Technology

Drinks Americas Announces Brewery Selection for Kid Rock Beer
In a September 2008 press release, the Company announced that Drinks Americas and Kid Rock would work together to develop and bring to market a product targeted to beer drinkers who appreciate value with an easy-to-drink, traditional, good-tasting American manufactured beer.

I'm sorry but that is just disgusting.

Lately--perhaps due to the anti-depressant I'm on actually working?--I have been on a creative spree, sewing, painting, sketching like crazy. Here is the last little painting I did:

Monday, February 23, 2009

Oscars Faves and Least Faves, Google & the Asian Enigma

I didn't watch the Oscars, but after scoping out the internet, here are my fave and least fave looks:

Jessica Alba looked totally adorable and I love her hair.

God. Amy Adams in Carolina Herrera. 2DIE4.

Anne Hathaway in Armani Prive. I love the silhouette!

I'm not a big fan of the shade of this pink (I wish it was either less purple or more purple), but Natalie makes it look adorable anyway.

Evan Rachel Wood in Elie Saab. I LOVE this dress (though I agree with most people that the model who wore it on the runway rocked it harder)!

Marisa Tomei in Versace Atelier. The pleats are amazing and I love her soft casual hair with this dress.

No wonder I hate Miley. She looks frumpier than Reese Witherspoon down below.

Wtf Reese? Really? I expect heinous dresses from Tilda Swinton, but I expected more from you. You ought to know better.

Also, I don't even want to dignify SJP's ridiculous number by posting a picture, so I'll merely post a link to a picture of it. Her boobs=heinous.

AND of course, Brad/Angie and Jen/John (Jennifer Aniston looks WAY better than Angeline in my opinion). Angelina's definitely attractive, but her outfits are so boring. I feel like she thinks that because she has those big ass lips, she doesn't need to try so hard in the dress department. Well, she's wrong. I'd rather be friends with Jen than Angelina. And I'd rather have Jen's sexy arms than Angelina's nasty vascular twigs for arms. Anyway, I'm done bashing Angie (she broke my heart when she divorced Billy Bob).

And, unrelated to the Oscars, check out this partial screenshot I captured on Google:

No joke. Try typing it yourself.


I finished my "Last Supper" apron that I started yesterday. I love cute aprons and sewing aprons! And making ruffles. Haha.

You can see me brazenly modeling it (: and my messy room.


Sunday, February 22, 2009

Bucket List

After reading a fellow blogger's "bucket list" I've been inspired to create my own:

1. Own a purse that retails for over $2,000 (maybe Chloe?)

2. Drive my kid to his/her first day of school.

3. Go on a real vacation (ie, somewhere that isn't local, get a tan, eat too much food).

4. Plant and tend to a backyard vegetable garden.

5. French braid my future daughter's hair.

6. Teach her the basics of makeup and skincare.

7. Make a good fondant.

8. Sell at least three pieces of art for over $500 each.

9. Have six pack abs and a ripped back.

Hmm ... I can't think of much else at the moment, but I'll update when I do.

Friday, February 20, 2009


Marc by Marc Jacobs fall collections always give me a back to school feeling. I like it. My favorite part of going back to school was school supply shopping. I liked clothes too, but new pencils and paper was even more exciting. I guess it's still exciting, but I value clothes a lot more now. Here are a few more of my favorites from Fashion Week (check out Isaac Mizrahi's heinous purse hat):

Calvin KleinMarc Jacobs

LibertineMarc by Marc Jacobs

Ports 1961Oscar de la Renta

ThakoonIsaac Mizrahi

And most colorful of all is this snap of Pammy, Richie Rich and Amanda.

I really like this colorgenics thing. A bunch of floating boxes in different colors pop up and you click them in order of how "harmonious" you feel with each color. It's probably bollocks but it's fun. Here are my results:

Date: 2/20/2009
Colorgenics Number: 37104526

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

click here to try colorgenics yourself.

a story of getting hollered at, leather jackets, & hayden panettiere

I was online shopping, checking out a sale at and I came across these necklaces that are ridiculous giant chains. They're super tacky and I super love them. The necklaces reminded me of when I lived in Seattle. I lived in First Hill, worked downtown and went to school at SU. Sometimes I would get hit on, but usually it would be if I was walking to/from work at either 4 in the morning or 11 at night because of some rollout or visuals change at J. Crew.

One sunny afternoon, feeling like shit because I had a bad cold, I was walking home from school and this guy and his homie roll up in a '88 purple Honda Prelude and they stop the car as I'm walking on the sidewalk. Homie in the passenger side has the window down and starts yelling "Girl! Hey! Girl!" and I pretend not to notice for a bit. But then when I finally turn to look he goes "GIRL!!! I got tonzzzza goolldd!!!" and both arms out the window jingling all the gold bracelets he's wearing.

wtf. Anyway, I'm sure I'll share more "getting hollered at" stories later.

I just went to check my cart at (I keep things in there and then check it every now and then to see which things were removed because they sold out).

My Michael Kors white moto jacket in XS sold out today ):

But the XS dark gray MK jacket is still in my cart (:

Also, the shoe page is featuring Dolce Vita shoes which I am a fan of and I was pleased to find that bluefly is offering these shoes for $80.00 more than I paid for them at Damn it feels good to be a gangster. And by "gangster" I mean "bargain huntress."

Lastly, I don't watch TV or listen to the radio and the websites I visit online apparently do not keep me current on music happenings. I became aware of this video about 10 minutes ago while visiting another blog. Maybe it's old news to you, maybe it's not. But I warn you, it's really embarrassing.

At first I thought "Wow, this reminds me of Paris Hilton's 'Stars Are Blind' musical debut," and then I realized Paris' video way MUCH better than Hayden's. I still love Heroes.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I really love gray.

I've been feeling stressed and irritated lately. Today is better than yesterday though. I'm watching Serial Mom right now and I'm checking out out the Fall RTW shows online:

William Rast *drool*

Marc Jacobs gray cape and those purple suede boots are amazing!

G. Star crazy space suit looking hoodie

Rodarte thigh high boots are ridiculous and amazing.

Derek Lam hot gloves

Doo. Ri's models wore gray lipstick. Very "icy hypothermia."

And ... lastly, here's a picture of my nails. It's "On the Prowl" nail polish from the Hello Kitty/MAC collection (: