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Showing posts with label messy room. Show all posts
Showing posts with label messy room. Show all posts

Sunday, March 22, 2009

food stamps. mental health stigmas. the office.

Okay. Today I applied for food stamps. I'm really really not proud of this, but if I'm accepted for food stamps it will be a lot easier to defer my student loans. And really, there is no way I can handle another bill on top of everything. Anyway, during the application it asked if I had health reasons for not working. Or if I didn't work because I was disabled. And I really didn't know how to answer those.

I'm currently not working or in school because I have really bad depression and panic disorder and an eating disorder and unofficially diagnosed borderline personality disorder. Basically I have a lot of mental health issues. But I feel like those are bullshit reasons to not work. I really do. But that probably just makes me more depressed and more likely to have an anxiety attack. So wtf am I supposed to do? The last few days I've been a perfect commercial for depression or Paxil or Wellbutrin or Celexa or whatever when there's some person who's all by themselves looking really glum. Or maybe not because they never show people curled up in the fetal position crying in bed having not showered in 3 days in a very messy room with diet coke cans and snickers wrappers everywhere. Ugh. TMI sorry.

Anyway, I just read an article about depression and the stigma associated with it. It's about a study which concluded that people are more comfortable with admitting that they're gay, alcoholic, have cancer or are bankrupt. Seriously. People are more comfortable saying "I'm bankrupt" than "I have a mental health problem." I'm not judging bankruptcy because I'm pretty much bankrupt too. Haha. Reminds me of the episode of the Office where Michael "declares" bankruptcy. Check it out:

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Tokyo! the movie, post office, swaps, shoe shops and sleep.



This movie looks pretty great.

I sold over half my wardrobe on eBay and shipped out several packages of stuff. I also sold a coat on etsy! Thank god, because now I can pay my cell phone bill.

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I also sent a birthday card to my friend Roy and a kawaii postcard for a Swap-Bot swap. Other swaps I've done/am going to do are:

"Worst Date Ever" email swap
Owl ATC Swap
Twilight Music Swap - this swap you make a CD of music that SHOULD have been on the Twilight soundtrack and send it your partner. I've already started working on mine.
Gain Exposure to Your Blog Swap
Mini Recipe Book Swap

I love swap-bot.

I'm so tired. I ran out of my Wellbutrin prescription and have honestly been too lazy to call my doctor to refill it. That's bad. But Wellbutrin is the reason why I can't sleep.

I was window shopping at endless.com (my fave shoe store) and kept putting things in my cart that I liked. My subtotal is $1,600.00. Yikes. Click here to see a screenshot. Lolz

Oh yeah, and I cleaned my room. It was looking like this:

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Shower. Then nap time.